We’re definitely feeling a lot more “meh” since the passing of Dottie’s “nana Pip”.
All our girls (and boys) are special to us. It doesn’t matter if you have multiples - they all have their individual quirks and characteristics and you really feel the loss when one goes.
We’ve been off normal work and rescue work since Tuesday just looking after her, saying goodbye and then just wallowing really. Grief is an a**hole. Not sleeping but being exhausted, no appetite, need to keep busy but can’t really concentrate on anything. Also don’t particularly want to leave the house and encounter people, even though the house holds the most memories and makes me sad. Sometimes I think I see her out of the corner of my eye, but it’s just one of the others.
The dogs have been quiet and off their dinner too. It’s such a huge loss for us all. I know animals also grieve a pack member.
Next week, I’ll do my best to eat and sleep properly, shower, be brave and leave the house. I’ll go to work and do rescue stuff and try really hard to hold in my grief. But this week, the Dogs and I are just going to wallow. We lost our special companion and there’s no point pretending we aren’t devastated. We are and we can’t be bothered 😕
We are very lucky in some ways though and I try to focus on that part... We are lucky to have 4 other dogs who love us. To have friends and family checking in and showing they care about our loss. To have understanding bosses and colleagues who respect the fact we just aren’t able to focus and do our best right now and need some time. All of that helps, tremendously.
We’re also so lucky to have a shining light like our girl Dottie, to guide us through these hard times. Here’s Dottie looking super (not) comfy for her afternoon nap ♥️