I didn’t want him at first..
There I said it..
Let me explain... in November of 2009 I had to make the most difficult, heart wrenching, soul crushing, life altering decision.. I had to say goodbye to my very first dog. I held him while he was euthanized... I felt his heart slow down... I felt him go limp... I felt his soul leave his body....and (because of the nature of the vet clinic where I worked at the time... ie hell) i had to put him in a black garbage bag (body bag) and carry him into the freezer by myself..
I was devastated. I screamed in my car by myself... I denied calls from Ben and my mom...They’re not going to understand what I just lost.. part of me left with him..
A couple of weeks had past... and I realized I couldn’t live without a dog..
You see food crumbs fell on the ground... and stayed there untouched...
For the past 7 years up to that Nov of 2009, that has never happened before... food crumbs could barely reach the floor...and my heart sunk... again..
I started looking... shelters, rescues, pet finder etc... I looked everywhere..
I found a couple of dogs... but their descriptions just screamed trouble and work and I just wasn’t ready for it..
The next day... I was on the phone with Ben and he suggested a chessie..
More to humor him than anything else I started looking.. First Breeder that popped up , who also health tested,had an available
pick of the the litter boy..
Reluctantly i agreed.
When he first joined me... my heart was shut.. I felt guilt... I felt like I was trying to replace my old dog..
What I didn’t know is that Dylian was sent to me by my old friend.. little things made this clear..
The way he ran up to me full speed with his little head thrown backwards because it couldn’t keep up with the rest of his body..
The way he let me cry at 3 months holding still ...as I burried my head in his fur..
The way he looked straight into my eyes as if to say: I know.. you are not alone..
And this morning as his cold nose presses against mine as he tells me good morning I know... I don’t have just one dog soul watching over me.. I have two... my earthly guardian angel...and the one on the rainbow bridge..
I am so lucky.